I met someone amazing. He and I share so many interests together and have similar goals in life. There are a myriad of reasons why we get on so well. He and I are spiritual, we both believe in the good of others and the good of the world. We both are going through similar acceptance hurdles from family and we both loathe or current working situations. The best part about the two of us is that we both love and care for each other a great deal.
However, we've both been through a really difficult year. The past year has been extremely stressful and emotional for the both of us and I can only speak for myself but i'm pretty certain we both tried the best we could in a really shitty situation. I certainly could have done a better job. I became so focused on what i wanted from the relationship that i lost sight of what i had, a loving partner who was trying his best. I became moody and non-complacent with the situation that I was dealt with, which im sure didn't spur up feelings of warmth and love. So this leads me into the title of the blog post. Under an extreme amount of stress from my job, my personal life (breaking up with Topher), and my life with this amazing guy...I tried to make my bed as best as I could. The increasing amounts of stress and strain on the relationship caused me to make a bed that was only bearable for one.
I'm trying to remake that bed to the way I started making it when we first met. I don't know if its too late, I don't know if it is a bed that he wants to lay on anymore, but I'm going to try. Have you ever met the person in your life that you thought you would never meet. I met that elusive person that I always wanted to come into my life but never believed would. All I can do is ty my best to make my bed right this time, so that maybe it can be comfortable for two, instead of one.
I look back on "us" before all the stress and before all the hurdles and I see two people that had a blast in Florida, and in Portland, and house sitting a friends house. I see long walks talking about our lives and looking at houses we both might live in one day. I look back and i see happiness personified in the form of a match between two people. I havent forgotten how awesome we were and still can be. I can't be perfect and im sure there will be mistakes in the future...but sometimes you find someone that gives you something you never thought you could feel.
So heres to trying to remake that bed.
