Day 1

So this is the first day that I am going to try my hardest to go without talking to mike. We will see how it goes

Follow your heart

Today I woke up and I tried to figure out what was wrong with me. Why was I still so lost and confused. Why was I so tormented. I mean. Hell. My body knew it. And then I realized something. Yesterday when I was talking to mike I poured out my feelings to him and that made me feel better. I felt better because I was going after something that made me happy. So I thought, I need to go after what makes me happy, because isn't that all that matters in life? To follow your heart and do whatever you know makes you happy? And you know what makes me happy...mike. I know it's taking a chance. A risk. A sacrifice. But who cares?!?! The boy makes me happy like no other. And you know what, I made mistakes and he stuck by me for a long long time and he's just awesome!!! I need to go and follow my heart to greener pasteures. Who is to say what will happen. But I know that my heart wants mike. And I don't care if people tell me I'm making the wrong decision because I'm tired of living my life based off of what other people tell me to do. I live my own life and I don't see how there could be any fault in following your heart.

I was thinking about all the wonderful times that mike and I have shared together and how beautiful our relationship was. It sucks that we had to learn from so many mistakes on each other but you know what. He wouldn't have proposed if after all those mistakes he still loved me. I know that boy loves me and I know that there's going to be no one out there that makes him happy the way I do. And now that I have figured out who I am and where I want my life to go, I think this time around it will be right.

I love him. He makes my heart happy and I know I make his heart happy too.

Love and rockets,
Tuan